Monthly Archives: February 2012
Eating Disorders
So for a while after the overdose, everything seemed to be running smoothly, I had gone back to school after the holidays, I had ‘turned over a new leaf’, and despite the scarring on my arm, I appeared relatively stable. I was going through a period of no self harm (that I can remember anyway) […]
Overdoses
By this time I was seventeen, and had various other things going on in my life. I met a girl called Becki who suffered seriously with self harm, cutting much deeper than I ever had. It was at this time I first understood the concept of being ‘triggered’. After seeing deep cuts on her arm […]
My introduction to prescription pills
So, I was sat one day at school when my phone rings, and it’s the bus driver. He tells there’s something he wants to say to me but he doesn’t know how to say it. I tell him to just get on with it, so he tells me he wants to f*ck me. Just like […]
Problems with intimacy
Still, through my teenage years, I had not experienced the NHS, or been given any form of label for my mental issues. I felt uncomfortable around boys, I remember several dates where I was completely dehabilitated by nerves and anxiety – I could not understand why to other people it came so easy. I was […]
My first experiences with self harm
For a while after I joined secondary school, I was doing ok. Despite always feeling as though I was ‘different’, that it was the rest of the class against ‘me’ I seemed to fit in better at a much bigger school with a lot more people in my class. That said, I was still a […]
Life after BPD 