As with many other BPD sufferers, I really don’t know who I am. I have drawers and drawers full of clothes, and wear 10% of them. Some are too big, some are too small, some I simply couldn’t ‘pull off’, some I bought in the spur of the moment and have never seen the light of day. I seem to have no sense of style, and never follow a theme – normally I wear the first thing I can find that hides me but sometimes I do make an attempt to put at outfit ‘together’.
Is it normal to have to THINK of the style you want to be? For most people it seems to come naturally, they either like an item of clothing because it ‘fits’ into their style, or they don’t. But because I don’t have that style I keep promising myself, today I am going to find my style, and be a new person, but it never happens. I just trundle along, procrastinating about it.
I’ve tried towny, jitter, goth, even chav!! but nothing fits. Same goes for my hair. I wear it all different ways but nothing feels like ‘me’ I just feel like I’m trying to be someone else.
Take Care. x