I think I allow Facebook to affect me a lot more than a normal person would.
Sometimes when I do things, I imagine what the reaction would be on facebook. I connect how many likes and comments I have to how much and how many people love me. I take comments on there far too seriously. I am addicted to facebook.
I used to put ominous status’s on there, about how things we’re going bad, how bad I was feeling – until someone pointed out to me it was very attention seeking (even the popular ‘I’m going to take a break from facebook I’m really upset blah blah blah) post was used) – and you know my issues over being seen to be attention seeking – so that was the last time I did that.
So what is this all about? Is it because social media is a massive platform for attention, and attention is what I crave? But why does it affect me so deeply when I get negative attention on there, a snidy comment or someone disagreeing with me? I will react my deleting posts claiming I can’t cope with it. Why am I so sensitive about it? Perhaps any negative attention in the public domain is too difficult for me to bear. Perhaps I have so little self esteem I am trying to cling on to the little bit I have left.
Take Care. x