Apologies for my locked post yesterday – I had what so many of us know as a ‘Borderline Rage’ – total, complete and absolutely uncontrollable rage which came about in a split second and disappeared just as quickly. I felt that writing my thoughts down (and therefore getting them out of my head) would help, and it did. I am not a fan of locking posts but in this case, the post contained very bad language (that I wouldn’t want to inflict upon anyone let alone any of you young ‘uns that may be reading), plus in the heat of the moment I was unable to take the time to change names hence, I did not want it to have public access. So anyway – my point is – please don’t be offended I have locked it – it’s not that I am hiding it from any of you guys – it is because I don’t want to get done for libel!
I suppose, thinking about anger, it is another deep rooted BPD symptom. Just like other emotions, we Borderlines cannot feel it ‘a little’ – it is either there in extreme or not there at all. Hence why, most of the time, I am passive, and I hate confrontation, but every now and again I will explode, in a big way. At least yesterday I had the sense to do it on my blog rather than to the person causing the anger in the first place.