Struggling quite a bit tonight. Only stayed at the works christmas meal for a short while as wasn’t really feeling that sociable and kept on drifting in and out – kept finding myself staring into space with all these conversations going around me but not understanding or taking it what they were, then realising someone was speaking to me.
I can’t get hold of Jen and I can’t shake the feeling that something is wrong. I know it is ridiculous, and paranoia. I have taken 6mg valium to try and settle things. I hate feeling like this. I am supposed to be going to a dog show tomorrow but won’t be going if I still feel like this.