Borderline Personality Disorder (or more commonly referred to as BPD) is one of many mental illnesses that is characterised by a certain set of symptoms as set out by the DSM-IV Criteria.
What does BPM mean for me?
- Intense fear of being abandoned or left -and as a result going out of my way to keep people happy an make people like me, and not want to leave me
- Self harming behaviours and suicide attempts (both meaningful and attention seeking)
- Impulsive behaviours (spending, speeding, shopping, tattoos and piercings, quick decisions, drug taking)
- Promiscuous behaviours (sleeping around, one night stands, meaningless sex, working within the sex industry)
- Intense and unstable relationships (At the start of a relationship being incredibly intense, then changing to disinterest for no apparent reason, this includes both intimate relationships and friendships)
- Innappropriate attachments (To therapists, teachers, co-workers, friends)
- Extremes of emotion and mood (That change rapidly, almost like a fast forwarded version of bi-polar)
- Bulimic and anorexic tendancies
- Innapropriate anger (Very intense rages for no apparent reason)
- Dissociation (normally in relation to stress)
- Lack of identity (No set ‘style’, confusion over sexual identity and orientation, constant attempts to re-invent myself with regards to lifestyle, clothing and hairstyle)
- Psychotic tendancies (hallucinations, ‘voices’, disordered thinking [although some of these have been rare and only when I have been most ill])
- Paranoia (‘He doesn’t love me’ ‘He’s cheating on me’ ‘They are talking about me’)
There are many treatments for BPD, but unfortunately you will come to realise that BPD isn’t something that can be cured, rather it needs to be managed. Most sufferers will explain that BPD is an integral part of themselves, most will feel that if you remove the BPD, there will be nothing left. There are several options for treatment, some cover treating the symptoms, work long term to improve the prognosis;
- Pharmaceutical Treatment (Drugs) such as anti-depressants, anti-anxiety drugs, anti-psychotic drugs, mood stabilisers, sedatives, sleeping tablets
- Psychotherapy and counselling (see Dialectical Behaviour Therapy)
- Hospitalisation is frequently required to manage the short term implications of the disorder, sufferers are often sectioned to keep themselves safe
- Self Help changing your lifestyle can help to ease some symptoms
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