Tag Archives: Bulimia

How to beat Borderline Personality Disorder

Since the start of my blogging journey, I have hoped that my posts have made a difference to someone, no matter how small. I always wonder whether people take the time to read my long rambling posts, as I try to explain different specific situations, and my sometimes long and complex reactions to them. I […]

Body dysmorphic or just plain ugly?

For most of my life I have hated my body, and everything about it. There have been occassions when I have looked at pictures of myself and thought I look pretty, but in those photographs I am usually wearing a lot of make up and my hair is done. On a normal day to day […]

I can see a positive difference in myself

Yesterday I was faced with a situation which I have found myself in before, and this time, I reacted completely differently. For those of you who weren’t following me in the early days, you can read about the bus driver here. About two years ago, I walked into him in Tesco – inevitable really as […]

I can feel myself becoming Eating Disordered again

This morning, I stepped on the scales, and after yesterdays happiness from seeing 11 stone 7 on the scales, I saw 11 stone 9 (which became 11 stone 8 after I stood on one foot, lol). I genuinely don’t know why I have gone up again, as yesterday I ate well, didn’t have pancakes AND […]

Determined not to be alone on valentines day?

I know it sounds stupid, petty and crazy but it means a lot to me that I am not alone on Valentines Day. I know it is only a day, and it is really commercialised, but it has become really important to me that I am secure that people love me, and being alone on […]

A million steps back. *ED Trigger*

Yesterday started badly anyway. I weighed myself, although I knew I shouldn’t, to find I had put on a pound. It was stupid, it was probably water weight, but it set my mood to negative before I had even started. I went to work, and was getting on with things but it was steady progress […]

Still going well.

I am making sure I continue to blog when things are positive so you guys can see that there ARE good times through the dark. I always feel I don’t need that release when I am okay, but as time goes on I realise this blog is just as much about helping others through their […]

Memories of an Eating Disordered Teen *ED Triggering*

On Tuesday night I went to spend the night with my friend Kim, and we got talking about Bulimia, and I suddenly remembered that at one time when my eating was bad, I had kept a livejournal, and after a little searching, I managed to find it. After reading through it, I can identify how […]

Systems are down

This morning is a little frustrating as all the computer systems are down at work so we are sitting and twiddling our thumbs until the I.T. company arrive and fix them for us. Sunday night wasn’t such a great night. After a reasonable day on Sunday, I suddenly found myself with quite strong urges to […]

Fugly

Fugly = Fucking. Ugly. (Yes that’s me). I am having a very bad night. Every time I look in the mirror I see this disgusting person looking back at me. FAT FAT FAT. Rolls of it, everywhere. Why can’t I stop eating???? Because I am weak. I’ve known this all along. Anorexia the god, bulimia […]