Tag Archives: Fat

Body dysmorphic or just plain ugly?

For most of my life I have hated my body, and everything about it. There have been occassions when I have looked at pictures of myself and thought I look pretty, but in those photographs I am usually wearing a lot of make up and my hair is done. On a normal day to day […]

I can see a positive difference in myself

Yesterday I was faced with a situation which I have found myself in before, and this time, I reacted completely differently. For those of you who weren’t following me in the early days, you can read about the bus driver here. About two years ago, I walked into him in Tesco – inevitable really as […]

Nothing tastes as good as thin feels

It’s true. I looked in the mirror yesterday, and felt happy with myself. I am shrinking, slowly but healthily. Still eating a lot but eating the right things – fruit, vegetables, home cooked food so I know what goes in it. But then I am looking in the mirror right now, about to go on […]

Today’s revelations!

Last night Simon I had quite a hilarious chat about role play. We were lying in bed in that ‘after sex haze’ when the conversation turned to role play. I admitted that I would love to try it, but don’t think I could do it as I won’t be able to keep a straight face. […]

He won’t like me.

As you may or may not know, I am off to Iceland at the end of this week, with Simon, by friend with benefits. I am really looking forward to it, and looking forward to enjoying his company, but I am dreading the fact that he is going to see me naked. I know he’s […]

Memories of an Eating Disordered Teen *ED Triggering*

On Tuesday night I went to spend the night with my friend Kim, and we got talking about Bulimia, and I suddenly remembered that at one time when my eating was bad, I had kept a livejournal, and after a little searching, I managed to find it. After reading through it, I can identify how […]

I’m not ok

I’m lying here on my bed, in bra and pants, and I feel empty. I am supposed to be getting ready to go to the Balloon Fiesta with Hannah, but I am so hideously fat everything looks awful. I just cut and it won’t stop bleeding. I’m just holding a tissue to it but it […]