Tag Archives: love

You can’t make someone see the best in you

I am feeling very hurt and upset tonight, and I’m getting some old urges so I feel like I need to blog to get my thoughts out in some logical order down in writing. A situation has occurred over the past few days which has been upsetting, but more so the reaction of my father […]

I love him, but he doesn’t know me at all.

Last time James and I had our biggest argument so far, and I still don’t know whether our relationship is going to continue. I will explain what happened and then I will discuss it further. I have been feeling unwell lately, I have a kidney infection and I have been unusually tired. Yesterday, I found […]

So this is what love is.

I love James. Totally and wholly. I cannot get enough of him. I would do anything he asked me to, anything at all to make him happy. I love everything about him, even the bits he doesn’t like himself. Suddenly, songs about love have so much more meaning – and I never realised that before […]

Weekend from hell (The Tom Story)

I couldn’t write about this on Sunday because I was in that much of a state, so I apologise for my short post. I was in a place where I didn’t ever think I would go back to and it terrified me if I am honest. On Thursday evening I drove down to a hotel […]

Talking helps to make things become clear

I was talking to Jen last night for quite a while about how I am feeling like I need to back away from Chris, and we delved into some stuff about my upbringing, and I really think we made some headway into understanding why I am the way I am, so I just wanted to […]

They ain’t gonna be around forever kiddo.

Tonight I overheard my Dad telling my Mum that his PSA levels had increased from 8 to 11. Rewind almost two years ago, the mail comes in and I am flicking through when I see a window envelope addressed to my dad, but the paperwork inside had slipped down exposing the title ‘Oncology Appointment’. We […]

Opening up and trusting *Triggering*

On Tuesday night I went to Kims house, which I was really looking forward to. I can get really lonely living with my parents and Kim is very cuddly and tactile, and I am also this way. I know I say this over and over again but being close to someone I love makes me […]

Another version

I while back I posted this picture, saying that it was the best picture I’d even seen, and that I could just feel everything I was meant to feel. Anyway, by pure luck, I actually came across the actual photograph this picture was drawn from (I didn’t even realised one existed). This is all I […]

You go up, you go down, life goes on.

So, on the whole, I had a good weekend. On friday evening, my friend Kim arrived to stay the night, and I took her round the cottage garden (I’ve been given permission to do some work in the garden before the sale completes). She said she really liked it, which is great. This is a […]

The plot thickens

I have had a lovely few days – a lot more soul searching has gone on – but lovely none-the-less. Yesterday I went to Go Ape with some friends. Firstly, I was just happy to be invited, and included. No matter how many times I am included in things or invited to places, it still […]