Tag Archives: relationship

I am weak.

I am sitting in my car outside the residential home which is home to, amongst others, my great Aunt Thelma. The reason I am here is that she is dying. I am one of those terrible people who never visits their relatives when they go into care. Its NOT that I don’t care, because I […]

Protected: Reasonable weekend – getting things out in the open

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Is my sub-concious controlling my behaviour?

The argument from earlier this week is slowly fading away. James seems to be okay with me and sweeping things under the carpet (which is fairly normal for him). He seems to be ok, inside I just feel completely broken. My anxiety level is at an all time high and I feel constantly nauseas. I […]

Unable to articulate feelings

Over the months of mine and James’s relationship, situations have arisen and arguments have occured, and I believe a large part of this is due to my ability to articulate my feelings properly, possibly due to the borderline lack of interpersonal effectiveness. So, I am trying to lay them out in a logical manner and […]

Forgiving someone – a hard call for a ‘Borderline’

“The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.” ~Mahatma Gandhi Up until my early 20s, I carried around a lot of anger toward someone in my life. I’d been hurt by a person I trusted, and for a long time in my adolescence I wanted to hurt them back. I lived […]

A huge decision and a bombshell

So today, I made a big decision. Some of you might not agree with it, hell, I’m not even sure if it is the right one to make, but I will explain how I got there. I took quite a few big steps last night, the first being going through my medicine cabinet, and throwing […]

Still feeling good

I want to keep posting while I am feeling good to show you guys that things CAN go well whilst living with this horrible disorder. I have been, on the whole, feeling very positive now for a little while, and despite issues arising (with my Mum etc) or confrontational situations, I have dealt with them […]