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Protected: Reasonable weekend – getting things out in the open

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Progress on feelings

So James and I went out for a meal last night and had a long talk about things that I have been feeling. I told him I found it hard to articulate things, and to his credit, he gave me the time to talk, to think about what I was saying, to pause and gather […]

Unable to articulate feelings

Over the months of mine and James’s relationship, situations have arisen and arguments have occured, and I believe a large part of this is due to my ability to articulate my feelings properly, possibly due to the borderline lack of interpersonal effectiveness. So, I am trying to lay them out in a logical manner and […]

Officially Discharged

So a letter came for me today from my CPN, stating that as of today, I am officially discharged from the mental health services. She had wanted to meet me to go through some forms and procedures about ‘staying well’ but I never found the time, and seemingly nor did she. It feels funny, after […]

Bad Cervical Screening Result

So yesterday before I went on my date, I was opening my post, to find a letter containing the results of my cervical smear (PAP) test results. The letter said that they had found evidence of a Human Papilloma Virus Infection (HPV) and dyskaryosis in some of the cells on my cervix. At first, when […]

Determined not to be alone on valentines day?

I know it sounds stupid, petty and crazy but it means a lot to me that I am not alone on Valentines Day. I know it is only a day, and it is really commercialised, but it has become really important to me that I am secure that people love me, and being alone on […]

Weekend from hell (The Tom Story)

I couldn’t write about this on Sunday because I was in that much of a state, so I apologise for my short post. I was in a place where I didn’t ever think I would go back to and it terrified me if I am honest. On Thursday evening I drove down to a hotel […]

Oh my dear god – Sexual Deviant?????

I don’t even think I have the words to write this. I don’t know whether to laugh, cry or run screaming to the hills. The night before last, Chris and I had a conversation over text. Just to set the scene, I have been on 3 dates with him, but we have texted pretty much […]

Long day today

I have come to the conclusion that Simon has no real respect for me, and probably never did. The sex that used to be affectionate and kind is now rough and tumble (I’m not complaining its merely an observation)… We don’t kiss… It is merely an act of physical pleasure for the both of us […]

Mixed bag today

This morning I woke up early, around 6.30am and couldn’t get back to sleep. Simon was still asleep, so I got up and got myself a drink, and sat on the sofa. I noticed Simons phone on the arm of the sofa, and against my better judgement, picked it up and opened up the Facebook […]