Tag Archives: triggering

Backing away from toxic people

As time goes by, I can sadly see more and more why I have ended up with mental health issues. *Disclaimer* – to my brother. I have chosen, until now, to not discuss your issues and their impact on my life. However, they have started to have such a large impact on me and I […]

How to beat Borderline Personality Disorder

Since the start of my blogging journey, I have hoped that my posts have made a difference to someone, no matter how small. I always wonder whether people take the time to read my long rambling posts, as I try to explain different specific situations, and my sometimes long and complex reactions to them. I […]

Letting go of self harm – for good.

Today it has been 461 days since I last harmed myself. This weekend, an old friend of mine came to stay. Recently she has been going through some issues (obviously I will no go into them here as they are her issues and not mine) but to cut a long story short, I want to […]

*and breathe* *Triggering*

I have a draw full of Diazepam and I want to take it all. I can’t get rid of my rage right now. I am angry, so angry, I want to cry, I want to be violent!!!!! I can now understand how murders happen. I want to take pills. I think I will. I attempted […]

Questioning the psychology behind being triggered

Today, after I received some more pictures from the friend who is not particularly well at the moment, I felt the familiar urges to cut. But now I am going to take a moment to think about actually why I feel these emotions rather than just blindly accepting and acting upon them. So, when I […]

Planning a strategy

So, I live with my parents. I never used to – after university I lived with Jean, and then when I became ill I lived with Lyn and she became my carer. When I fell out with Lyn, I moved back in with my parents, It wasn’t the best option as they are not very […]

Admission to the unit *TRIGGERING IMAGES OF SELF HARM*

So after that last overdose, where I really tried to succeed, followed by a few more overdoses and one attempt of suffocating myself by placing a bag over my head, it was decided that it would be safer for me to move to a secure unit; a 24 bed ward where I could be watched […]