Tag Archives: work

Protected: A letter to my partner

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Being friendly and liked as opposed to being in charge and professional

What happened this afternoon, I believe is not actually related to my borderline, I think it is a genuine problem that a lot of people will encounter during their lives. My work life is described in more detail in this earlier post. Everything was going well despite an email from the married man at ringcraft […]

Stripped Back

I am struggling a little today. For some unknown reason, my mum is on the warpath. She is having digs about me and work that I haven’t done (and even work that hasn’t been done which isn’t my work to do). She has gone out of the office now and I had to fight the […]

Must hold it together

I am sat here, at work, holding back the tears that have been threatening me for the past 10 minutes. I can feel the familiar haze of dissociation closing in on me, sinking down until it swallows me up. My mum never changes. I just received a public dressing down in front of other staff […]

*and breathe* *Triggering*

I have a draw full of Diazepam and I want to take it all. I can’t get rid of my rage right now. I am angry, so angry, I want to cry, I want to be violent!!!!! I can now understand how murders happen. I want to take pills. I think I will. I attempted […]

Dealing with stress

In my quest to understand my BPD, I have come across another trigger; Stress. This week, and last week, my mum has been on holiday, leaving me to look after the business. This isn’t such a bad thing – we have been rowing a lot lately so it is nice to have some peace and […]

Work Work Work!

It always amazes me how things seem to be so complicated in my life. Maybe I am just unlucky, or maybe my BPD makes it that way. This is going to be a bit of a long one, so bear with me. If you don’t want to read it, don’t worry, but it is going […]

Finding it difficult today *triggering*

Possibly why I have been posting on my blog so much today, I can’t seem to do anything else. I am currently sat at work, I am the only one because two people are off sick. I can’t think straight, I can’t concentrate. I work for my mum in the family business, and was on […]