Author Archives: Life after BPD
I want to cut, but instead, I shall write.
Life feels very tough at the moment. It has been a long time since I have taken the time to actually sit down and write out how I am feeling, but tonight I reached the point where, after 7 years “free” from self harm, I could feel my strength and resolve waning. Please, feel free […]
Just plainly numb
I think there is a set amount of shit and drama that the human brain can take before it just says, nope! and ceases to function. The drama relating to my brother and his behaviour continues to escalate, and I really am done with being involved in it all. After the initial “drama” of taking […]
You can’t make someone see the best in you
I am feeling very hurt and upset tonight, and I’m getting some old urges so I feel like I need to blog to get my thoughts out in some logical order down in writing. A situation has occurred over the past few days which has been upsetting, but more so the reaction of my father […]
Revisiting the past (a tough day today!)
For those of you who have followed the blog for a long time will remember the years I spent in a rather unhealthy relationship. If you don’t, and feel you want to, you can read about what happened here and here. Fast forward nearly 10 years, and as you know I am working as a […]
CBT Diploma & a DBT Course for £14 from £199!
A year ago I embarked on a diploma in CBT. There wasn’t any reason for it really, other than it popped up on Groupon and looked like it might be interesting! Fast forward 12 months, and I have finally managed to find the time to complete it. Low and behold- I’m officially certified !! (I […]
Trichotillomania
From my early teens, I have had an obsession with plucking. Mainly my eyebrows to start with, and then extending to my chin and neck when I developed PCOS and started growing unwanted facial hair. It had become a kinda longstanding family joke, because after the first few years I no longer needed a tweezer […]
Life after BPD 
Only I could find a therapist with BPD!
So last thursday I had my second session with my new “private counsellor”. During the first one, she was talking about my BPD and she happened to say “we” when describing one of the symptoms. I did hear it, but chose not to question her on it at that point. During this appointment however, she […]