Tag Archives: Mental Illness

Glutton for punishment

I think the time has come to admit some home truths to myself and make some changes. I am going through life with one foot in the past and one in the present, leaving no foot free for the future, and until now I wasn’t ready to admit it to myself. But now I am. […]

Soul Searching

Please bear with me on this, I think it may be a slightly long one, but I hope to cover quite a bit of ground. I have now been a mother for nearly six months, and although parenthood is this hard, whirlwind of a journey, it has been bloody amazing too. The tiredness and dirty […]

Helping myself

So look what arrived in the post today! So, I fully intend to go through this book from cover to cover, with a highlighter and making annotations. Before I start DBT through the NHS, I want to understand how best to help myself. I want to make this work more than anything, so hopefully I […]

*and breathe* *Triggering*

I have a draw full of Diazepam and I want to take it all. I can’t get rid of my rage right now. I am angry, so angry, I want to cry, I want to be violent!!!!! I can now understand how murders happen. I want to take pills. I think I will. I attempted […]

Rules for maintaining a BPD Relationship

So, all you fellow BPD sufferers out there will be with me when I say, for normal people, maintaining a healthy, happy and intimate relationship is difficult. When you add BPD into the mix, it is damn near impossible, but I have come up a few simple rules that seem to help me, maybe they […]

‘A few more scars won’t hurt’ *TRIGGERING IMAGES*

PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU WILL BE TRIGGERED. CONTAINS IMAGES OF SELF HARM. The mantra used by most self harmers which couldn’t be further from the truth. How do your scars affect your daily life? I try to use mine to show other self harmers what NOT to do. For a long while, I […]

Never underestimate your effect as a parent

One of my biggest concerns of becoming a parent (just to clarify I amĀ  not pregnant, just thinking about the future) would firstly be if there is a genetic element to BPD, and secondly how my BPD would affect how I brought up my child. I love my parents, and they love me. But it […]